And Behind Door Number…


These days even small decisions drive me crazy but the life altering type? Forget it.

I remind myself of our cat, Solomon. He’ll sit at the door meowing to go out, I open the door and he, barely sticking his nose out, does an abrupt about face. No sooner do I close the door and walk away than he’s right back at it meowing. This happens several times before he decides to sashay through the opening. It’s maddening! I will confess to gently shoving him out when I don’t have time to placate him. I wonder if God feels this frustration with His children.

I’d prayed for release from a situation for years. In the process of being freed from it I too, fraught with anxiety, would turn and run back through the open door before it closed.  Part of me clung to what I sought to leave. I had obsessed and wavered over it for so long that I didn’t know how to function without it. Then without warning it happened. I was tenderly pushed across the threshold and the door slammed shut. I pressed my back firmly against the door, with my hand clutching the knob. There was a gaping hole in my heart and black nothingness lying before me. How could so many years be for naught?  In fear, I tried yet again to turn back but the door was locked.  Then the answer washed through me.

I had allowed the situation to become an idol. I believed Satan’s lie that walking away equaled failure. In reality, staying in it was the mistake, a costly mistake. I believe going through this was necessary to teach me that trusting God is the most important decision I will ever have to make, the rest will follow. I couldn’t see that until I walked through the door God had held open. I turned back to face the emptiness but instead saw promise and the freedom to be who God made me to be.

Are you holding on to a doorknob today? Take heart! Deuteronomy 31:8 says, “The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” God patiently holds the door open for you, take a peek, and trust Him. He’s already crossed that threshold and stands waiting for you to follow!

Compel Tip: I used, “Escape the Trap of Tired, Typical Writing” by Lysa TerKeurst

Patti Hemphill
May 2015


9 thoughts on “And Behind Door Number…

  1. I can relate to this post. I have asked myself some of the very same questions. How could I have given so many years to this place for nothing? I felt like a failure too! My hand has let go of the knob now and I am moving forward with fresh joy. Love the pictures you painted in this writing and the story of the cat was a great intro.

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  2. Until recently I thought of idols as something I could safely check off as “not a problem.” Wrong. I can construct an idol out of a situation, a person, an ideal…the list goes on and on. Thanks for sharing this!

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    • I know what you mean…it’s been years now since I heard a sermon on idol worship and I was truly stunned when I realized that some of the things in our lives take up to much of our heart. Thanks for commenting!


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